So I pulled the Judgment Reversed card during my Pluto meditation today, which was… interesting. I wasn’t even planning on it, to be honest.
How It Started
I was just sitting there, trying to clear my head like I usually do. You know, just focusing on my breathing. But then this heavy feeling just came over me, like a weight on my chest. My mind kept circling back to this old grudge I’ve been holding onto, this thing from years ago that I thought I was over. Apparently not. That’s when I remembered the Judgment card. It kept popping into my head, so I figured, fine, let’s see what’s up.
The Actual Process
I didn’t make it all ceremonial or anything. I just grabbed my deck from the shelf—the one with the worn edges—and shuffled while thinking about that heavy feeling. I wasn’t asking a specific question, just kind of holding that feeling in my mind. I split the deck and pulled one card. Turned it over. Bam. Judgment, but upside down.
My first thought was, “Great. More stuff about not being able to let go.” But I just sat with it. I looked at the image. The usual angel calling everyone to rise up, but reversed, it felt like the call was being ignored. Or maybe I was the one ignoring it. I started writing in my journal, just stream-of-consciousness stuff.
- What came up: That old argument. The one where I felt totally wronged and never got an apology.
- The feeling: Stuck. Like I’m waiting for some kind of permission to move on, but it’s never coming.
- The reversed part: It hit me that maybe I’m the one refusing to forgive myself for my part in it. For holding onto it for so long. The reversal felt like a blockage I put there myself.
I didn’t try to force some big revelation. I just acknowledged it. I wrote down, “Judgment reversed. Pluto’s digging this up. It’s mine to deal with now, not theirs.” And that was pretty much it.
Wrapping Up
I put the card back in the deck. The heavy feeling wasn’t totally gone, but it felt… quieter. Like I’d named it and it lost a bit of its power. I didn’t get some magical fix. It’s more like I’ve been carrying this box around for years and finally peeked inside to see what was making it so heavy. It’s still my box to carry, but now I know what’s in it. The practice for me is just about looking, not necessarily fixing everything right away. Just seeing it clearly is the first step.
