Okay so yesterday afternoon I was scrolling through my phone, you know, just killing time before dinner. And this question popped into my head – how does that guy I kinda like actually feel about me? Big question, right? Felt a bit silly but also really curious. I remembered seeing stuff online about “free tarot readings” for love stuff. Decided, why not? Got nothing to lose.
Getting Ready
First things first, cleared off the little round table by my window. Wiped it down – felt like it needed a clean space. Then I grabbed my trusty old Rider-Waite deck from the bookshelf. It’s the one I learned with, feels comfortable. Shuffled them cards like crazy, probably longer than needed, just thinking about him hard the whole time. Focused on that question: His feelings? Towards me? Right now? Felt kinda vulnerable asking that out loud to the universe, even just in my head!
The Cards I Pulled (Simple Three Card Spread)
Went for a basic past-present-future vibe for feelings. Here’s what fell out face-up:
- Card 1 (Past Influence/Root of Feeling): The Knight of Cups. Huh. Okay, romantic dude energy? Dreamy, charming. Made me think maybe his initial impression of me was good, maybe even sweet.
- Card 2 (Current Feelings): The Hanged Man. Woah. Wasn’t expecting that! Straight up confusion, indecision, maybe needing a new perspective. Like he’s just… stuck? Unsure? Maybe about me, maybe about stuff in his life affecting how he sees things. Definitely not a clear “yes he adores you” signal!
- Card 3 (Potential Future Direction): The Seven of Cups. Choices, illusions, fantasies. Could mean he’s seeing lots of options (not just me!), or maybe he’s idealizing things in his head without clarity. Potential for confusion to continue, or maybe needing to pick a path.
Making Sense of the Mess
Stared at those three cards for ages. The Knight was nice, but that Hanged Man staring back at me… that was the gut punch. The free online guides I peeked at all said similar things about it – pause, suspension, sacrifice. Doesn’t scream “passionate interest” right now, does it? More like “head in the clouds, feet not moving.” And the Seven of Cups just piled on the ambiguity.
My initial feeling? Disappointment, honestly. Kinda hoped for swords or wands showing action towards me. Cups are feelings, yeah, but this felt murky as heck. Then I thought back to our last few kinda awkward interactions… the texts he didn’t really reply to… the mixed signals… Suddenly the cards made a horrible kind of sense. No fireworks card here, folks. More like a big flashing “?” over his head.
What I’m Taking Away
Okay, so a free tarot reading ain’t gospel truth. But that Hanged Man card hit different. It felt like it confirmed my sneaking suspicion – he’s confused, or distracted, or just not feeling it strongly enough to act right now. Doesn’t mean it’s over forever (future is just potential, right?), but it slapped me with some real talk: he’s not actively pursuing this. Might be time for me to stop over-analyzing his texts and chill out, focus my energy elsewhere. Maybe ask him directly someday, but for now? Cards told me to relax the grip. Kinda bummed, but also weirdly freeing to get that nudge to back off. The universe works in mysterious ways… usually by throwing confusing stick figures on cards at you!
