How It Started
I was just hanging out one lazy afternoon, scrolling through some posts online, and I kept seeing stuff about the Death tarot card popping up everywhere. Got me curious, you know? Like, what does this spooky card actually mean when it comes to feelings? Been dealing with my own life changes lately—lost my job out of nowhere last month, felt pretty crushed—so I thought, hey, why not try to understand it firsthand? Grabbed my old tarot deck off the shelf, dusted it off, and decided to dive in. Figured if this card represents endings and new starts, it could help me figure out my messy emotions right now.
The Actual Process Step by Step
First, I made sure my mind was clear. Just sat at my kitchen table, breathed deep, and shuffled those cards like crazy for about five minutes. Focused on what I was feeling: all that sadness from losing work, mixed with a bit of excitement for whatever comes next. Then, I spread the cards out and drew one slowly. Bam! The Death card came right out. Kinda freaked me out at first—I was like, “Oh crap, is this bad news?” But I reminded myself it’s not about dying; it’s about change. Started flipping through my notes and some online blurbs (nothing fancy, just quick searches), comparing what others said about it as feelings.
- I jotted down key words that felt right: “letting go,” “moving on,” “fresh start.” Stuff that made sense for where I’m at.
- Then, I spent some time journaling my thoughts. Wrote about that job loss feeling heavy, like an old skin I needed to shed. Imagined what letting go could look like—maybe volunteering more, taking a course online.
- Got stuck for a sec when doubt crept in. “Is this even real?” I wondered. But I pushed past it by doing a mini meditation. Closed my eyes, pictured the card’s symbols—the rising sun, the horse—and let it sink in. Slowly, it shifted from scary to hopeful.
After that, I tested it on myself. Reached out to a friend who’s also going through a rough patch—he’s got divorce stuff dragging him down—and shared what I learned. Just talked it out over coffee, no big plan. Helped him see it as motivation to push through, not fear it. Ended up feeling lighter, like we both got a nudge to embrace change.
What I Realized in the End
Once I wrapped up the whole thing, it hit me. That Death card ain’t something to run from—it’s a friend in disguise. For feelings? It means shaking off what’s not working and stepping into something new. Kinda like how losing my job felt like the end of the world, but now I’m eyeing freelancing and it’s sparking excitement. Finished by jotting down my takeaways in a little notebook: “When endings come, ride the wave, don’t fight it.” This practice didn’t just explain tarot; it healed a chunk of my own heart.
