Man, I remember it like it was yesterday. I was just scrolling through my feed, probably half-asleep with my morning coffee, when I saw this headline pop up: “Your Virgo Astrology This Week: Prepare for Big Changes!” And you know what? It just hit different that day. Like a real punch to the gut, but not in a bad way. More like, “Oh, crap, someone’s been reading my diary.”
I’d been feeling this weird buzz for a while, you know? Like the air was thick with something about to happen, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. Just restless. Always thinking, “Is this it? Is this all there is?” So, when that headline showed up, it was like the universe just gave me a nudge. A really strong nudge.
For months leading up to that, I’d been stuck in a rut. My daily grind was just that – a grind. Wake up, do the thing, eat, sleep, repeat. I felt like I was just going through the motions. My passion for what I was doing, it just wasn’t there anymore. It felt… fake. Like putting on a smile when you’d rather just go hide under a rock. I kept telling myself, “It’s fine, it’s stable, don’t rock the boat.” But that voice, the one that kept asking “what if?”, it was getting louder and louder.
So, after I saw that headline, something in me just snapped. I closed my laptop. Stood up. And I walked straight to my whiteboard. Didn’t even grab a marker at first. Just stared at it. All that blank space. All that potential. And that’s when I thought, “Okay, big changes, huh? Let’s actually make some.”
The first thing I did was just dump everything out of my head. I grabbed that marker and just started writing. All the things I hated about my current setup, all the things I wished I could be doing instead, all the crazy ideas I’d shoved down because they seemed “unrealistic.” It was a mess, honestly. Just a jumble of words, arrows, question marks. But it felt good to finally get it out.
Next, I started trying to find the common threads. What was the core of all this restlessness? It wasn’t just the job, it was the lack of creation, the feeling of not building anything for myself. I wanted to build something from the ground up, something that was truly mine. That’s where the idea for this whole blog, this sharing platform, really started to take root.
I remembered all those times I’d tried to learn a new skill, or finish a project, and just gave up. The big hurdle was always consistency and accountability. So, my “big change” wasn’t just doing something new, it was sticking with it. I decided I would document everything, literally everything. Every stumble, every small win, every late-night frustration. That was going to be my accountability partner.
- First step: I carved out an hour every single night. No excuses. That hour was for my project.
- Second step: I picked a simple project to start. Not the biggest, craziest idea, but something manageable. I wanted to build a simple tool for tracking my personal learning progress.
- Third step: I broke it down into tiny, tiny pieces. Like, ridiculously small. “Open a text editor.” “Write one line of code.” “Create a new folder.”
- Fourth step: I committed to writing a short update, even if it was just a sentence, about what I did or tried to do that hour. Every single night, before I went to bed.
Man, those first few weeks were rough. There were nights I just stared at the screen, completely drained, and felt like giving up. The old familiar feeling of “this is too hard” crept in. But then I’d remember that headline, “Big Changes.” And I’d remember my commitment to myself, to this little practice record I was starting. Even if it was just fixing one tiny bug, or reading one paragraph of documentation, I made myself do something and then write it down.
I hit walls. So many walls. Code wouldn’t compile. My design ideas looked terrible when I tried to implement them. I felt like a complete amateur, fumbling around in the dark. But each time, because I was documenting it, I could look back and see the small progress. I could see where I got stuck, and sometimes, just writing it down helped me figure out a different angle to approach it from.
Over time, something shifted. That hour a night became less of a chore and more of an escape. I started to look forward to it. I started seeing connections between different ideas, figuring out solutions I wouldn’t have even considered before. That little learning tracker I started? It grew into something pretty useful for me. And then I started thinking, “Hey, maybe other people would find this useful, or at least relatable.”
The Shift Was Real
That’s how this whole blogging thing started for me. That “Big Changes” headline wasn’t just about making a single shift; it was about committing to a whole new way of being. A way of taking those vague feelings of wanting more, breaking them down into actionable steps, and then relentlessly documenting the journey. It’s not always pretty, definitely not always easy, but it’s real. And that, for me, is the biggest change of all.
