Why I Grabbed My Tarot Deck Last Thursday Night
So there I was, scrolling through Instagram at 11 PM after drinking cheap box wine. Saw some meme about “signs he misses you” and suddenly couldn’t stop wondering about this guy I dated last summer. Like, really obsessing. Decided my dusty tarot cards might shut my brain up.
Dug out my beginner’s deck from under a pile of unread self-help books. Shuffled those cards violently while staring at my cat for moral support. Kept repeating in my head: “Is he thinking about me? Does he feel anything at all?” Dropped three cards while shuffling – took that as a sign to start.
How I Laid Out The Cards
Slapped down three cards face-down on my coffee table beside old pizza crusts:
- Left card for his past feelings about us
- Middle card for what’s in his head right now
- Right card for where this might go
Flipped them over fast before I could chicken out. Got:
- Five of Cups (past position)
- Knight of Swords (present position)
- The Tower (future position)
My Instant Panic Interpretation
Recognized Five of Cups immediately – that card shows some dude crying over spilled wine. Total “he regrets how things ended” vibes. Felt smug for like five seconds.
Then saw Knight of Swords – guy charging on a horse with a giant sword. My exact reaction: “Oh crap, he’s charging away from me.” Like he’s full speed into work or some new obsession. Probably not daydreaming about my face.
The Tower card made me actually gasp. That lightning bolt hitting a crumbling building? Texted my friend: “DOES THIS MEAN HIS LIFE’S ABOUT TO EXPLODE???”
What I Finally Figured Out
Checked my ancient tarot guidebook sticky-taped at the spine. Realized:
- Five of Cups: He definitely mourned what we had
- Knight of Swords: Currently hyper-focused on goals, not relationships
- The Tower: Unexpected reality check coming for either him or me
Stared at the cards while my cat knocked over the pizza box. Realized the Tower wasn’t necessarily disaster – maybe it means I need to stop obsessing over this dude.
How This Actually Changed My Night
Cleaned up the pizza mess instead of stalking his Spotify playlists. Made two concrete decisions:
- Will stop analyzing “last seen” timestamps
- Using The Tower energy to finally delete our cringe texts
The cards didn’t say he’s dreaming about me – but they definitely showed me how ridiculous I was acting. Sometimes you don’t get answers about his feelings. You just get a reality check about your own.
