Lately I’ve been getting hit with all kinds of life curveballs, you know? Felt like I needed some fresh perspective, something to point me forward. That tarot deck sitting dusty on my shelf caught my eye – the one about new beginnings sounded perfect. Figured, why not? Let’s see what these cards say.
Digging Out the Old Deck
First things first, I had to actually find the darn thing. Rifled through the top shelf in my office, behind some old notebooks and a half-dead cactus. Dust flew everywhere – sneezed like crazy! Finally found it crammed behind a stack of books. Wiped off the dark blue velvet pouch, felt kinda fancy pulling it out. Opened it up, gave the cards a good shuffle. Not gonna lie, my hands felt a bit clumsy at first. Knocked some coffee over my notebook – classic me. Cleaned up, shuffled some more, just letting my mind wander on what ‘fresh start’ even means for me right now.
Focusing In & Drawing the Card
Took a deep breath, trying real hard to push aside thoughts about dinner and that weird noise the car made yesterday. Needed to just focus. Closed my eyes, held the deck tight, and basically begged for some clear vibes. Just one card felt right – keep it simple. Cut the deck once, twice… pulled the top card from the middle pile. Turned it over slowly.
The Fool. Just… stood there staring at it. The little guy with his pack, stepping right off a cliff, dog barking at him, looking kinda clueless but excited. My first thought? “Great. They’re calling me an idiot.” Got no clue what it really meant, deep down.
Figuring Out What the Heck it Meant
Grabbed my dog-eared tarot book, the one with the sticky notes popping out everywhere. Flipped to the Fool section fast. Here’s what stuck out:
- Not a warning, but a big green light: It’s about leaping into something new, headfirst, enthusiasm high.
- Zero Expectations: Goes with the total innocence, no baggage, no fear yet. Just pure potential.
- Blind Faith Required: Yeah, that cliff thing. You ain’t gotta see the path, just gotta trust yourself to find it as you fall.
Felt like a lightbulb moment, honestly. Was stressing so hard about needing a “perfect plan” before starting anything – whether it’s clearing out my garage like I’ve been meaning to for months, or maybe that little creative project idea I keep bottling up. This card just laughed at all that worrying. Pure gut feeling, maybe a little naivety? Could actually be the strength needed to actually start.
What Actually Clicked in My Messy Brain
Held that Fool card all evening, just chewing on it. Realized my constant overthinking is the exact opposite of what this card was nudging me towards. Stressing about the “right” path completely kills that beginner spirit of “Let’s just see what happens!”
That garage cleanup I keep avoiding? Yeah, instead of drafting a military operation plan, maybe just pick one corner tomorrow. Bag it up, donate it, done. Don’t agonize over the whole damn disaster zone. The creative idea? Maybe jot down one little scribble without dreaming up an entire art gallery launch. Tiny action, pure Fool energy.
Banged my head against the wall for ages, needing signs and guarantees before moving an inch. But the Fool? He ain’t waiting for signs. He is the sign. Sometimes the big beginning really just means doing the thing before you feel ready.
Putting the Fool-ish Feeling Away (For Now)
Propped the Fool card right there on my desk where I can’t miss it. Stares me down every time I start overcomplicating my coffee order. The deck’s back in its blue bag, but not shoved behind the cactus this time – it’s sitting next to my keyboard. Lesson landed? Not every new chapter needs a detailed map and three backup plans. Sometimes you just gotta be the idiot with the backpack stepping off the edge. Feels equal parts ridiculous and totally freeing.
