Alright folks, got that Hexen tarot deck in today – you know the one with those kinda dark, nature-y vibes? Felt drawn to it for some reason. Honestly, holding the box felt… different. Heavy. Cool artwork, kinda spooky but beautiful.
First thing? Didn’t just jump in flippin’ cards everywhere. Figured I needed to actually meet these cards, right? So I sat down at my old wooden table, made sure nobody was gonna bug me. Took the deck out slowly. The cards felt thick, kinda stiff. New deck smell! Spent a good 15-20 minutes just looking at each card, one by one. Flipped through the little book that came with it – super basic meanings. Not gonna memorize all 78 meanings today, that’s for sure.
My First Real Shuffle – Felt Awkward!
Okay, shuffling this thing was harder than I thought. Deck’s new, cards are big for my hands. Fumbled a bit, almost dropped the whole pile. Felt like a total noob! Did this kinda weird mash shuffle thing because a proper riffle wasn’t happening. Figured intention matters more than technique, so just focused on thinking, “Let’s just see what comes up.” Cleared my head best I could – harder than shuffling! Did a few deep breaths.
Picking a Simple Spread
Knew I shouldn’t try a fancy Celtic Cross on day one. Way too much. Kept it super simple: a Past, Present, Future spread. Just three cards. Figured I could handle three meanings without melting my brain. Pulled three cards off the top after shuffling a bunch more – still clumsy.
- Card 1 (Past): The Ten of Swords. Ouch. That one looks brutal. Guy lying down with ten swords in his back. Book says “painful ending, betrayal.” Yikes. Made me think about that messy job I quit last year. Felt spot-on actually. Kinda scary how right it felt.
- Card 2 (Present): The Moon. Big moon, wolves howling, dark water. Book says “illusion, fear, intuition.” Okay… I have been feeling kinda unsure about a decision lately, a bit lost in the fog. Maybe worrying too much? This card’s energy feels confusing but real.
- Card 3 (Future): Ace of Pentacles. Bright light, a hand holding a big shiny coin. Book says “new material opportunity, prosperity.” Well, that felt way brighter than the other two! I am starting a new project next week… Hopeful!
Trying to Connect the Dots
Sat staring at these three cards like they were a puzzle. Past hurt (Ten of Swords), present confusion/fear (The Moon), future potential for something solid and good (Ace of Pentacles). It kinda told a story: stuff sucked, now I’m in the messy middle feeling iffy, but something decent could be coming. Didn’t feel super specific, but the feelings matched my life right now. Weirdly comforting and a bit eye-opening.
Pulled out my cheap notebook and scribbled it all down:
- The cards I pulled
- The book meanings
- What I actually thought they meant in my context
- How I felt looking at them
That felt important – like I was starting my own relationship with these images.
Wrapping Up – No Magic, Just Feeling It Out
So that was my very first go. Did I magically predict the lottery numbers? Nope. Did I see the exact name of my future spouse? Hell no. But I did spend focused time with the cards, felt their energy (some creepy, some calm!), tried pulling three with intention, and kinda saw my own situation reflected back in a simple, symbolic way. The Ace of Pentacles gave me a much-needed little boost of hope too!
Biggest takeaway? Don’t expect Hollywood psychic stuff right out the gate. It’s messy! Shuffling sucks at first. Meanings are fuzzy. But just doing it, looking closely, feeling it out, and writing down my own thoughts… that’s the real starting point. Gonna try this again tomorrow, maybe with a different tiny question. We’ll see!
