Okay, so last Thursday I pulled out my dusty Rider-Waite deck after months ignoring it. Honestly? Life felt like a traffic jam – my job hunt going nowhere and my side project stalled. Figured tarot might slap some sense into me.
The Pull & Initial Gut Punch
Shuffled hard while chewing over career stress. Bam – The Chariot falls out upside down. Reversed. Great. My stomach dropped because last time I got this card? Crashed my bike the next day (true story). Snapped a quick pic for my journal before I chickened out.
Upright Meaning Muscle Memory
First I tried remembering upright basics without googling:
- Willpower forcing two sphinxes forward
- Focus so intense it’s tunnel vision
- That feeling when you white-knuckle deadlines
Kinda missed that energy lately ngl.
Reversed Reality Check
Then flipped to my notebook from tarot class ages ago:
Reversed Chariot =
- Wheels spinning in mud
- Self-sabotage mode activated
- Getting dragged by life instead of driving
Yep. That explained the 3 half-finished resumes on my desk.
The Test Drive
Right then I made a dumb deal with myself: If Chariot means control? I’d reclaim one tiny thing immediately. Chose laundry mountain haunting my room. Folded every sock while repeating “direction” like a weirdo. Felt ridiculous… till I finished. Small win unlocked momentum.
Epic Monday Collision
Fast forward to yesterday – job interview for a role I didn’t even want. Panic mode! But remembered reversed Chariot’s warning about forcing the wrong path. Cancelled last minute. Hours later? Dream company emailed about an opening. Coincidence? Maybe. But I’m steering toward THAT now.
Still not sure bout mystical stuff, but dang if this card didn’t call out my chaotic energy. Keeping it on my desk now. Wheels still creaky, but at least pointed forward.
