Man, sometimes you just get stuck, right? Like, you’re dating someone, everything feels kinda good, but then there’s this little nagging thing in the back of your head. You start to question everything. Does he really like me? Is this just a fling for him? What’s going on in his head? I tell ya, it was driving me nuts. I’d sit there, overthinking every text, every look, every little silence. It was draining, honestly.
I remember one specific evening. We had just had this really great date, like, really great. Laughed a ton, good conversation, felt super connected. But then he dropped me off, a quick hug, and that was it. No long goodbye, no “can’t wait to see you again” text an hour later. Just… silence. And boom, my brain went into overdrive. All those good feelings just evaporated, replaced by a storm of doubt. Was I reading too much into it? Was he just being polite? Ugh.
I was scrolling through my phone, probably looking at some dumb memes, trying to distract myself, when an ad popped up. You know the kind, “Get instant answers to your love life!” or something equally dramatic. Usually, I just ignore that stuff, total garbage. But this time, something made me pause. It mentioned “free tarot reading.” And my question, loud and clear in my head, was “Does he love me?” I figured, what have I got to lose, right? It’s free. It’s not like I was paying for a psychic or anything. Just curiosity, I told myself.
So, I clicked. The site was pretty simple, a bunch of bright colors and a big button saying “Start Your Free Reading.” It asked me to type in my name, his name (I hesitated a bit there, felt kinda silly doing it), and then to focus on my question. I really tried to focus, closing my eyes for a second, picturing his face, picturing us, and just repeating that one question in my head: “Does he love me?” It felt a bit like playing a game, a silly secret game just for me.
Next, it showed a spread of cards, face down. I had to pick three. My heart actually thumped a little. I picked the first one that caught my eye, then another one, and then the last one on the end. It wasn’t some deep, spiritual connection I was feeling, more like, “Let’s just get this over with and see what nonsense it spits out.”
The Cards Revealed
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The first card flipped over: looked like some sort of “Sun” card. All bright and happy. The text below it started talking about new beginnings, joy, clear skies ahead. My first thought was, “Okay, that’s nice, but also super generic, could apply to anything.”
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The second card was… heavier. It had a big sword on it, and someone looked kinda sad. The description talked about facing truths, making tough decisions, sometimes even about conflict or needing to let go. My gut twisted a bit. “Oh no,” I thought, “here comes the bad news.”
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Then the third card, a “Lovers” card, popped up. Now, that one definitely grabbed my attention. It was all about partnership, choices in love, deep connections, or sometimes even reconciliation. This felt more pointed. It talked about choosing a path with someone, or needing to make a choice about someone.
After selecting the cards, the site generated a “detailed interpretation” for me. I scrolled down, reading each paragraph carefully. The first bit was pretty positive, saying things about how my hopeful outlook was important and that positivity attracts positivity. Standard stuff. The second card’s interpretation was more about confronting any fears I had, or perhaps that there were unspoken things that needed to come out. It warned against avoiding difficult conversations. That actually hit home, because I definitely was avoiding talking about my doubts with him.
The “Lovers” card was the clincher for me. It basically said that there was a strong connection there, but that a choice needed to be made, or that I needed to clarify what I wanted. It wasn’t a direct “yes, he loves you!” or “no, he doesn’t!” It was more nuanced. It pushed the responsibility back to me, in a way. Like, “The feelings are there, but what are you gonna do about it?”
Honestly, reading all that, I didn’t get “instant clarity” in the way I expected. It wasn’t like a magic eight ball giving me a definitive answer. Instead, it was more like it held up a mirror. It made me realize that I was so focused on his feelings that I hadn’t really defined my own. And that fear of having a difficult conversation? Yeah, that was definitely holding me back.
I closed the browser, feeling a mix of relief and a tiny bit of embarrassment for even trying it. But as I sat there, the frantic energy from before had kinda settled. The “Lovers” card stuck in my head. A choice. A conversation. I thought about the Sun card too, the positivity. Maybe it wasn’t about whether he loved me, but whether I was ready to step up and figure out what we were, or could be.
The next day, I didn’t bring up the tarot reading, obviously. But I did something I hadn’t done before. When he texted me, I didn’t just reply. I suggested we grab coffee and actually talk, just us. I told him I had some things on my mind. And you know what? It was a bit awkward at first, but we talked. Really talked. We laid out what we were feeling, where things were going. It wasn’t a grand declaration of love or anything, but it was honest. And that felt like a whole lot more clarity than any online card reading could ever give me.
So, did the free tarot tell me if he loved me? Nah, not directly. But it did something even better: it nudged me to ask the right questions, not of some random website, but of myself, and then, eventually, of him. It helped me get out of my head and into actual conversation. And sometimes, that’s what you need the most when you’re caught in a loop of “does he love me?”
