My Early January Chaos
January first hit me hard. Like usual, I scribbled down my resolutions. “Work out more,” “Save some money,” “Stop doomscrolling,” you know the drill. Felt kinda blah about it, honestly. Like I was writing the same list from last year, and the year before that. Doubted I’d stick with any of it past February. My brain felt scattered.
Digging Up My Old Tarot Deck
Later that week, I was hunting for headphones under my bed. Found a dusty box instead. Oh yeah, my old tarot deck! Haven’t touched it since… who knows when. Had nothing to lose, right? Figured why not try some weird card thing focused on the year ahead? Sounded less boring than just writing lists. I grabbed it, dusted it off, and sat at my messy kitchen table. Just me, my lukewarm coffee, and these weird illustrated cards.
Here’s exactly what I did:
- Shuffled the cards for what felt like ages. Didn’t even know what I was focusing on. Just kept shuffling, thinking vaguely about the year, my doubts, the usual stuff.
- Cut the deck into three messy piles with my left hand (right felt too formal). Put them back together kinda randomly.
- Just pulled five cards off the top. Didn’t overthink it. Slapped them face down on the table in a wonky row.
Turning Them Over, One By One
Flipped the first card. The Eight of Wands. Whoosh! All about fast movement, things finally happening. Okay, maybe less procrastination this year? Interesting start.
Second card: The Ace of Pentacles. Big earthy energy! New chances for cash, health, foundations. Huh. Felt way more concrete than my vague “save money/get fit” scribbles.
Third card: The High Priestess. Showed up smack in the middle. Pure intuition. Felt like a punch in the gut – stop ignoring my gut feelings! Probably yelling at me about my constant phone scrolling instead of listening to myself.
Fourth card: Three of Cups. Celebration, hanging with good people, real connections. Totally opposite of my hermit tendencies. Made me think, maybe those resolutions are more fun with friends?
Fifth card: The Wheel of Fortune. Destiny turning, unexpected luck, cycles changing. Bam! Felt like the whole thing clicked then. Like the cards were saying, “Chill, things are shifting.”
The Weird Part After
Didn’t expect this part. Stuck the five card meanings on my fridge – just quick keywords written on a sticky note next to my blurry “save more” reminder.
Here’s the kicker: weeks later, I swear those cards kept popping into my head. When I almost skipped the gym? Thought of that Ace of Pentacles symbolizing health foundations. When I almost bought junk I didn’t need? Saw that Pentacles coin reminding me of saving. When I wanted to cancel plans and scroll? Remembered the Three of Cups and that High Priestess nudge for real connection over pixels. The Wheel? Just made me feel less rigid, less doom about messing up.
It wasn’t magic predicting the future. It felt more like… my brain suddenly had five sticky visual reminders attached to my fuzzy goals. Way more powerful than that boring list buried under mail on my counter. Unexpectedly, it actually worked to give those resolutions some weirdly specific energy I never had before. Crazy!
