Setting Up My Morning Practice
Yesterday morning, I grabbed my favorite tarot deck off the shelf. Sun was barely up, coffee still steaming. Felt that itch, you know? The one where you just gotta see what the cards say about a situation. Specifically, this time, I wanted to dig into what HE might be thinking. This guy, right? Mixed signals driving me nuts. Sat down at my little writing desk, cleared off the crumbs from breakfast. Just me, the deck, my notebook, and that question buzzing in my head: “What’s he really thinking?”
Shuffled the cards for a good few minutes. Felt the edges catching under my thumbs, heard that soft flutter sound they make. Wasn’t aiming for any fancy spread, just a simple three-card pull. One for main thoughts, one for hidden feels, one for action energy. Took a deep breath, focused on the question like I was pushing it into the cardboard. Then, slapped three cards down face-up, quick and raw. The Wheel of Fortune, the Emperor, and the Three of Swords. Yeah. Ouch, right?
Reading the Story in the Cards
Stared at them for a minute. Felt a little punch to the gut with that Three of Swords looking back. Started with the Wheel of Fortune in the “main thoughts” spot. Okay, my brain went: He thinks life’s just spinning around, fate calling the shots, him just riding the wave. Not much control? Maybe feeling stuck or waiting for some sign?
Then the Emperor for “hidden feels”. Big guy sitting on that throne. Felt solid. Interpretation popped: Deep down, he’s all about logic and control. He might act like he’s chill with the Wheel’s spin, but underneath? Wants structure, rules, things making sense. Probably weighing pros and cons like a spreadsheet.
Finally, the Three of Swords for “action energy”. Three swords stabbing a heart. Crystal clear, man. Felt heavy. This screamed: Hurt or fear is stopping him cold. Past pain? Fear of getting hurt again? That’s where his energy is stuck. Explains the mixed signals – wanting control but paralyzed by old wounds.
Pulling It All Together & My Big Realizations
Sat back, scribbling like mad in my notebook. Connecting the dots. The Wheel says “go with fate”, the Emperor wants “order”, but the Three of Swords whispers “danger!” – total clash. Explains the hot-and-cold vibe perfectly! My “aha” moments hit hard:
- He feels powerless but hides it behind wanting control.
- Logic walls him off because emotions feel risky.
- Past pain is calling the shots more than he’d ever admit.
Honestly? Weirdly accurate. Felt like the cards slapped down some uncomfortable truths I kinda knew but didn’t wanna see. That Three of Swords confirmed my gut feeling about him guarding his heart. Closed my notebook, put the cards away. It wasn’t magic, just… a really blunt mirror held up. Gave me way more clarity than overthinking it ever did. Practice done.
